unsatisfied.

sometimes i hit this ditch. this... couch.. this.. feeling of unsatisfaction..

cause by.

me, my lack of concern for Christ, and our relationship,

its a mix of unsatisfaction and contentment of the unsatisfaction..

wow. that sucks.. being content with being unsatisfied...

yet being unsatisfied to the point of discontentment...

but only until i hit this discontement will i do anything about it..

....

the hope is that what i try to do to get out of the contentment/unsatisfaction isn't somthing that will merely put me back in this place....

this probably makes no sense.. i guess i am just trying to do something to spur myself on.